Happenings

I'm Jordan. You probably knew that. I'm often on tumblr. I write quite a bit and am getting considerably better. Especially since I've figured out that I need to use those darn apostrophes. I'm getting better at it.
I'm a lifelong Mormon. And I'm afraid that, at times, I haven't been as close to my religion as I'd like, or I haven't been a very good example of our teachings. I really do want to become better at that, especially as I strive to be worthy of serving my mission.
What's a mission? A mission is a 2-year term of dedicated religious service where we proselyte in various towns, cities, and inside of homes, if we're invited in. We're "called" by the leaders of our Church to go and serve in a given area that we believe they receive upon revelation from God.
Basically some guys in suits tell us to go to some city or country we've never been to before to tell people that there's someone they may not know that cares about them more than they can understand.
Anyway, as of right now, I'm considered "unworthy" to go on a mission. Why? Well, here's the hard truth. I'm addicted to a form of stimulation that is considered a sin in my Church.
To me, it's an absolutely disgusting thing, but it's hard to be rid of. I fight it along with many, many other people that I know or have known.
"I'm a lifelong Mormon" is a horrible sentence. Why? Because Mormon was the Prophet that abridged several plates of brass and gold way back a few thousand years ago. I am not Mormon. I wish I could be like him, but I'm definitely not him. I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. We're more commonly known as "Mormons" although we're encouraged to use our full Church's name whenever and wherever the subject arises.
Currently not a lot is going on in my life. I just came back from a small 3-day camp called Shakespeare Showdown. There, I was in charge of 9 12-17 year-olds that were quite the fun group to be around. It was quite exciting to be there, and I wish that I could go again next year, but if my plans work out, I'll be on my mission!
I am a Ballroom dancer. However, we only have 1 performance left before we're done. It's the ultimate wrap-up, with over 20 performances going on. I love my dance company, Silhouette, but I won't pretend that I don't have some minor negative feelings towards it.
I use Linux Ubuntu 2D 12.04. I think. It might be 12.10. That may not even be out yet. Whatever, I'll look that up later.

The purpose of this place is for me to be open about what I feel. On tumblr, which I dearly love and yet may never leave, I feel trapped. There are too many people that have gotten to know me too well for my liking. I feel as if I can't say what I want to--need to--because of this. And so I came up with an idea to reconnect to my past and revisit Blogger. I see they've totally streamlined the interface. So good job on that, Google. I like it.
Occasionally, I swear. Occasionally, I'll have posts that are somewhat explicit because of the nature of my addiction. However, those posts will be rare, and they'll have warnings in the title, so no worries.

Also, I really like to talk a lot. I have a lot of time on my hands and, as such, will usually have no problem typing up huge posts.
I have two signatures that I'll probably switch between depending on the nature of the post. Usually it will be oro tius, which means "I pray more" or "pray more", according to Google translate. I should probably ask Stephanie if that's the right translation, since she knows a lot more about Latin than I do.
The other signature is surgere ut libertatem, which means "rise to freedom". Those will be on my posts relating to addiction.

oro tius