It finally occurs to me that I can actually use this place to talk about what's actually on my mind instead of dazzling it up for others to see and read about. Because I have a lot on my mind and a lot of it I can't say anywhere else.
My mom is in the hospital - again. I hate depression but I probably can't even comprehend it. And I hate that I can't comprehend it, because if I can't comprehend something then I don't know how to actively work to help someone that has it.
Buggie's gone back to Idaho and is in class at the time of posting. She knows, but I don't know how to tell anyone else. My mom is at the UofU ER right now and I just have this pit in my stomach. God will get me through this though. I just hope it's His will to get mom through this too.
You know what's really on my mind though? Why can't people just say straight out what they think instead of misdirecting their thoughts into some vague passive-aggression? And I know I'm being hypocritical right now in saying that, but it irks me when people are like "I don't agree with you" and then don't even mention who "you" is, especially when they refer to an event that only you know about and then don't bother on tagging you or @ing you. -_- It's ridiculous.
In the meantime, I need to be writing, but I don't know if I can focus on it with this pit in my stomach.
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