Social sites

I just wrote a huge post on tumblr. Huge, to me, at least. However, this site, while I will post that huge post here too, is not for what I put on tumblr.

Put simply, I miss Buggie. Talking to her via text will never replace being with her. Her laptop died, and so her blog is running via queue only. She's like my other half. We come from extraordinarily different walks of life and yet arrived at the same conclusions about many things, gospel or otherwise.
I miss being around her, the few times that we've actually been together. I miss hearing her laugh and yes, I miss poking her. Because she poked back, frequently. And we hugged a few times. I miss her. And so far I've not said anything about us too often here or on tumblr or on twitter, and definitely not on facebook.

Facebook is for family stuff and to keep up appearances. I've not really said anything about my actual life since I stopped reporting what day I was on addiction-wise on facebook. I know very few of my facebook friends personally and honestly don't care to know the majority of them. Some of them are tumblr people that I followed long enough to add me on facebook, but that eventually unfollowed me, such as Kerry and Jasmine and Beth. Some are old mentors, such as Danny, that I feel viewed me too critically. I understand that I was a bad mentee, but I wasn't ready for anything more than that yet. I had to learn more before I could do what he wanted me to do. He had everything right, except the timing. Others are people from twitter or various other places that I've never met nor talked to for much length.

Obviously Jimmy, Charlie, and a few others are exceptions. And then there are current tumblr people that are my friends there that I have never met but would like to meet someday.

Tumblr is where I'm a lot more honest with myself and the people that follow me. But I feel that that's also a sort of a front. It's my let's-be-religious-and-try-to-help-people place. It's also my writing domain, which I feel irritates people sometimes.

And then there's this place. My let's-talk-for-really-long-periods-of-time-about-controversial-topics place. And my let's-be-damn-honest-about-how-I-feel place.

And right now I wish my best friend was here. Not for any particular reason though. Just to be with her, I think. And because she really is the most amazing person I know right now.